I am so grateful for your encouragement, your feedback, your purchases, your interest, the work that YOU are doing to be a mindful and aware human being. I've always had a little creative fire burning in my center, and you are helping me to fuel it. The truth is that we can't do anything alone, so thank you for working with me to bring something beautiful into the world. Your pieces have a lot of positive energy infused into them. They are created in my bright little studio space, with fresh air blowing in, incense burning, Ray LaMontagne or a podcast in my ears (I'm digging on Embodied Astrology and Moonwise right now), and alchemy flowing through my hands. As much as I would like to make it seem like this is all about light and flowing creativity and positive affirmation, the truth is that the process is also frustrating. The truth is that I get overwhelmed with feelings of doubt and that I think about quitting when things aren't flowing. These feelings are oh-so-familiar because they are rooted in a deep down belief that I'm not worthy and I've been dealing them with the better half of my life.
And I know now that the root problem will continue to present itself in different ways, shapes, and forms until we stare it down, look it in the eyes, and say I choose not to believe you anymore. In the past this belief and the feelings that come with it have led to a lot of self-sabotage and walking away and shame. But, I am actively writing a new story for myself. When these things come up, I see them as an opportunity to grow. I see them as an opportunity to choose to believe differently. And to just keep fucking going.
We are all driven by internal beliefs and stories...some that serve us, many that don't. If something keeps coming up for you, I whole-heartedly believe that it's worth it to look in and figure out why. The universe will always give you the situations and people that you need to become more aware.
Be brave and trust that you have the ability to create new patterns and grooves and to break cycles that keep you stuck.